It's Likely to be Hard

I'm dreading Mother's Day. 

If I could just focus on my own mom, and push everything else out for the day, I think I'd be okay. But with how supportive my church family has been, it's likely someone (okay, several someones) will say something sweet and caring - knowing it will be a tough day - and I'll lose it. And I don't really want to spend the day feeling like a basketcase of tears and emotion. 

If only I could have had a bit more time before Mother's Day hit, I think it might have been easier. Maybe.

As a side note, and for the record, I have come to DESPISE the word "miscarriage". It makes me feel like I was being careless while carrying my baby in my arms, dropped her on her head on the sidewalk, and let her break in a million pieces.