It's Amazing

Today I heard one of the nicest things PC has ever said to me. He had been putting some laundry in the machine (in the garage), and came back in the house halfway through the job to tell me this, so I knew he was being very intentional about wanting me to hear it.

"Do you know?... I'm living IN my fantasy life." 

He explained further (and I won't even try to quote exactly, because I would get it wrong) how when he was young, and was unhappy with the way some things were in his family, he would "escape" by reading books about families that loved each other and helped each other. As he got older he would "escape" by playing computer/video games where you could be the hero, with big muscles and be in control of everything. He said that sometimes he goes back to the escape mechanism by default, and finds himself "hiding" from life... only to realize he doesn't have to do that anymore. 

"You've given me my fantasy life."

All the things he'd told me while we were going together about what he'd always wanted in a family, in a marriage, those are the things I have worked and worked and worked at trying to give him during the last year and a half. I wanted him to HAVE the loving relationships, to BE the hero, the provider, the protector for our little family, to ENJOY being married and coming home to us each night. I wanted to create a peaceful environment for him to come home to. I knew he wanted a HOME - not a house. I knew he wanted a WIFE - not a business partner. I knew he wanted a FAMILY - not disjointed, independent people living under one roof. And those are the things I'm working so hard to help facilitate and/or create. 

Hearing that I'm succeeding was... huge.

It's not just the boys that are healing right now.

The funny thing is, even though I haven't been in the same situations and sour relationships he has been, I think I know what he means. Because I keep catching myself suddenly thinking "Hey! I'm living the life I've always dreamed of!" 

I'm not a career gal anymore - even though I'm currently running about 4 home businesses at once. I'm not a music teacher anymore - I'm homeschooling two teen boys, yes, but I'm more concerned with teaching them about healthy lifestyles and relationships and a love for God. I'm not dealing with yucky customer service issues anymore - I'm dealing with yucky laundry and dishes. I'm not running back and forth between 2 or three jobs - I'm running back and forth between the grocery store and the post office and the bank and Ross and a few dozen other places. 

And I'm crazy busy some days. 

And I'm just plain crazy some days.

And I'm loving it.