It's Researching & Prayerful

It's been surprising (in a nice way) to realize that God has completely stepped in where the fear in this pregnancy is concerned. Oh, there have been a few really rough and scary days. But on the whole, I've had FAR less fear to deal with than I knew was possible for someone who miscarried their first baby. I have had many, many friends tell me they have been especially praying for me and our baby, and I can tell such an enormous amount of strength and grace and love has been poured into my life as a result of their prayers. I have moments of concern, but overall not debilitating fear.

However... I do have extreme amounts of fear where labor and delivery are concerned. I could use the word "terror" and I don't think I'd be far off. I won't go into all the reasons why. Suffice it to say that horror stories combined with my own miscarriage experience have quadrupled an already existing fear. 

I am attempting to do mass amounts of research on natural birthing experiences and asking close friends for their own (happy!!) birth stories. Currently reading an Ina May book and a couple of others.

I'm specifically making this a matter of prayer. I'm asking God to take the fear away, to help me relax and remember that He created my body to do this, and that I CAN do this - in His strength.