The "magic birthday fairy" (a.k.a. bio-mom) called LM yesterday. For her typical once-every-four-to-six-months five minute phone call. On one hand I'm glad she remembered his birthday because I know he was excited about getting a phone call from her. On the other....... *sigh*..... I know this will mean more attitude and upheaval from him for the next week or two.
I know it's not nice of me AT ALL. But sometimes I really wish she'd just drop dead. And then I feel guilty. She's definitely NOT ready for heaven, and I don't want her going to hell. But I wish with everything in me she'd just go away and leave the boys alone. FOR GOOD. If she had even a smidge of a good influence on them, or even a hint of her contact being helpful or healing or positive for them in any way, shape, or form... I'd feel differently. As it is, she can tear things up for several weeks with a 3-5 minute phone call. It's completely ridiculous.
I know it's not nice of me AT ALL. But sometimes I really wish she'd just drop dead. And then I feel guilty. She's definitely NOT ready for heaven, and I don't want her going to hell. But I wish with everything in me she'd just go away and leave the boys alone. FOR GOOD. If she had even a smidge of a good influence on them, or even a hint of her contact being helpful or healing or positive for them in any way, shape, or form... I'd feel differently. As it is, she can tear things up for several weeks with a 3-5 minute phone call. It's completely ridiculous.
The immaturity and selfishness shown continue to amaze me. It shouldn't by now. But it does.
It's not all about her. And she needs to be thinking about what is best for THE BOYS, instead of this random way she contacts them in moments when she is (apparently) feeling guilty for being a bad mother. I wish someone would kindly tell her to face the facts: she IS a bad mother, and she needs to just clear out of their life for good. No contact. Ever again.
Like that will happen.
She is honestly one of the most immature and selfish people I've ever had reason to come in contact with. Which means even if someone DID talk to her straight about the situation with the boys, she wouldn't make the right choices. She never has, and from what I can see, never will.
So we must deal with it as it is.
So we must deal with it as it is.
FOWARD, MARCH! On we go.......
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